help me please

So I'm already dumb at stardew valley example only now using sprinklers on year 11 but I have a big problem! I didn't know what journal scraps did till today and I've been throwing them away without using them and now I have none. Is it possible to reget these or have I lost them forever?

When I run SMAPI it starts with no problems, until I click on my save file, it just sends me back to the starting screen. After it sends me back to the starting screen an error message comes up on the SMAPI console, I'm not sure what caused this, I uploaded my farm to the site that shows your...